Well guys & gals: I’m off to FL tomorrow.

I am leaving Chowk for a while but not permanently. I’ll be back, as Schwartznegger would say. But I wanted to leave with some parting comments, in case I have left a bad impression due to my interactions.

I discovered Chowk some weeks back and have found in it an interesting assortment of Pakis, Indians, and others who’s national inclinations are undistingushable. But that does not matter as we are all whom we want others to percieve us as. Most are convincing and many are ambiguous. But that does not matter either. I have been truthful and no matter how sincere i might be there will always be Doubting Thomases. This is the nature of Chowk, and that is fine too. One has to find their own comfort zone with the interlucators on this forum.

I started out on this forum as an angry person but the last few weeks have calmed me down a bit. I found, through this forum, that not everybody is altogether clear on who they are. many joke about their identities but in real life they are quite good people whom we all might like to associate with. I have privately made friends with a few of the "chowkies" and I plan to cultivate my relationship with them. I have met a couple of the chowkies personally by making private contact with them on the telephone or email. We have had a meal together and they are good people. They weeere all very surprized how I got into the adult (exotic) film industry. They were both sympathetic and envious of my position as a Paki porn star. Am I the only one out there? Who knows? I hope so. I do not recommend this profession to anyone. I would recommend all chowkies to get an education first and do not throw away your life. Sure ther is a lot of fun having sex as often as one can but it does get tiresome and one has to be in great shape. I work out and, touch wood, I have not caught any diseases yet. Sure I live in the fast lane and I know the risks I am taking. But this kind of life is Haram. There is no long-term personal satisfaction. Also, because of the work i do I have to keep my chosen profession secret from my family. They think I am just a model. They dont know that I bang women for a living. I am ashamed to tell them. Some chowk friends have told me to bite the bullet and get out but it is not so easy and i am stuck for a couple of years through a contract. But for now i am making the most of it. I really enjoy my work and have put my heart and soul into it. Some times the women want be to be a bad boy and they want me to be mean with them by calling them names or spanking them. So I do it, and I do it well. I know how abnoxious I can be. But it is part of my job. So sorry to anyone whom I have offended. Hey saminasha, I did not mean to be wicked with you. You sounded like a feminist (feminazi) so I agve you the treatment, so to speak. But I did not mean it to be hurtful. I think you are probably a good girl and the persona you have on Chowk is a different from how you really are. Under different circumstances I would have loved to be your friend and satisfy you and give you a series of all night orgasm. I really mean it. God has given me an superbe body and an excellent ability to satisfy women completely. I would not be your toy boy, I would become your one and only lover, only interested in seeing to satisfying your every desire. But let us not linger on that note. I wish you well and hope you will find real love in your life. maybe we might meet sometime, who knows.

Thanks ali_1 for your commaradrie. I know being a home is difficult so hang in there and live your life to the fullest. I admire your perseverence.

Now a note to all those who hate me and find me dispicable. Please do not be so agaitated. I just went down the wrong path of Haram. Be not consumed by hatered of me. I am trying to come on the righteous path but it will take time. Bad habbits die hard. But I will survive thanks to those who have befriended me here on chowk. Yes, it sounds corney and so be it. Those who will beleive me will do so for my sincerity. Others, can laugh all they want. But remember anyone can fall into the mud. I fell due to my own stupidity. I got messed up with drugs and then got into the sex trade. So do not fall into that mess. That is my wish for you.

Anyway, inshallah, I’ll be back once I have some free time.

Ciao!!