what aggravates it all the more is the fact, that i dont even know what i truly want out of it. its an excrutiating pain and nothing physical that i can treat with medication. It hurts....but i dont know where.. makes me feel helpless... yet i live in it. there are two sure ways to deal with it... but i like giving into the past. or is it an escapist thing... its eventually going to eat me up inside.. i can see it eating my soul away.. and i let it. its hard to explain... theres some strange sensation of relief in it all...

we need to forgive ourselves. and move on..

but what if we dont want to forgive ourselves... what if, its because we want to live in it forever... is forever forever?

Not really.. no... depends on how long you want it to be

what if i want forever to be forever...

thats precisely what you will want to want... for a while... give it time. it heals all

i disagree... we all pretend to be so very busy in our lives... we have much to do, every second drawing us closer to the end... when we’re in fact running away from reality.. from our fears... from the fact that boredom is really what we all truly enjoy...
we are not what we are... from dawn to dusk.. we computerize our minds into believing that life is beautiful.. and we have ambitions and goals to achieve... when in reality.. it all amounts to nothing....
we’re competing against each other.. and therein lies our inherent insecurity. the failure to be sure of ourselves. desperate attempts to impress everybody... and still unsure of ourselves...
we all start and end the same way...
cradle to the grave... its all back to mud and clay...
what is enjoying life.. really?
why discriminate against someone not wanting something out of life? why look down upon someone satisfied with his surroundings? in fact... hes better off... with his far more sanguine approach to life than most of us....

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He shouldve rather relied on Bush as a role model. At least he never disappoints....

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I hate bHindi.

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One mans waste... is anothers existence...

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the nut attempted suicide again... it was not an attention grabbing gimmick..
he just wanted to sleep for a while longer... on weekdays...

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