Going Back! :S

Today, InshAllah, I will be heading back to my university. Aeeww, shucks! I kinda dislike the place, cosidering its too far off from the activities of city. the ’hulla-gulla’ and all. Its boring there and nothing much to do.

I have alot of stuff to do back there, too. Like my on-going project(s), that need to be complete before 14th of next month; April. Quite alot of it is done, thank God. Alot needs to be fixed and small bits need to be done. What it is I’m doing, I cant tell, but hopefully it will impress our faculty and peers in the end. Our project is something related to sound and ANNs. Documentation, thankfully was being covered during the various stages of the project. That wont be much of a headache. We are, obviously, done with the identification, specifaction, designing, phases. We have also, MashAllah, implemented nearly 80 percent of the project. The ANN part of the project has to be done now.

Its hard to get along with many people there. Understandablely due the same reasons why I am cranky sometimes. But the fact of the matter being people at my university are crankier ’more often’ than me. I try to be the ’happy’ of the town; inviting serious envies from all around. I’m seriously hurt when people are rude while talking to their friends.

Well, the loneliness, and the boredom kills you. From the inside. The internal death is the killer of all emotions, creativity, feelings and thoughts. A new ’you’ takes over you. A more sadistic, more cynical, more darker you. I dont think ’darker’ is the right word here, but it is what I could think of at the moment. From the top, to the bottom. Everyone is in for their own reasons. The setup is to emulate the west, while carrying the germs of the east. Parasite would be a better word here.

We all live in a pantheon. A place where we have created castles for ourselves, others being our slaves, butlers, and courtmen. We are the sole kings of those castles. Our success lies not in giving in to other’s wishes, but standing firm on the stubborn ideologies and concepts that have no social, religious, or policial value. We shall not move from them, as our success is more important than anything happening to anyone else in the world. I’m shocked how God can find the patience to deal with people like us.

When I paint the canvas with silica and sand, it turns into a mirror... And a mirror is the worst thing to carry into a gathering of peers. -So said a famous philosopher of the east. ;)