And This Has to Happen

I never knew that i would fall in love .... because i was always with different kind of personality ...... i never thought about it... i never knew that one day she would be that closer to me .... and you know what ...... that is my bad luck ...... she is onliest girl in my 23 years of life ...... allowed by me to come close as much as she can ....... my heart is just for her ..... and my bad luck ..... i cannt get her for my rest of life ...... same family problem from her side......age difference ..... what the hell ..... sometimes i get so much frustrated but then i think it would be ok for me and then i keep quiet ..... but what one can do ..... if he/she troubles this kind of situation ..... how one should troubleshot this situation ........... would anyone like to tell me ...... i am alone in my room ....... i want to shout ...... i want to cry .... but i cannot .... because i don’t want others to know my emotions ..... i don’t want others to know about my weakness ...... because i want to survive ........