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My day started off with a sad song , only if i knew that this sad song will have such an influence on me that my whole day will turn out to be bad , then i wud have tried to keep it out of my mind.At the same time around in the morning , a chat with a friend turned out to be a disaster , i just messed up everything , at times i just cant live up to ppls expectations , i surprise them in a bad way & some things once ruined can never be same again specially relations...so here i go again..THE END to another friendship , i've decided i'll never talk to him again and this time its not coz of him or anyone else its alll bcoz of ME ....certain things abt me that i just cant change even if i try to n then i punish myself by getting away frm a dear friend...actually i guess he's more than a friend......donno....its difficult to define some relations.Whatever i said so bluntly must have affected him in some way , but i know he's bad at expressing himself , whatever was on his mind n heart he dint let me know..i could just guess what he must have felt.He's not an emotional fool like me to let the matters of heart rule his mind for too long...i suppose he must b not even thinking of it anymore...and here iam ..torturing myself with those thoughts . Virtual life can never b equal to reality..there are bound to be differences and these differences eventually show up.Iam sad.I desperately need to get back to work to keep my mind away from these thoughts.I wish i could let him know what he means to me.....but then again i know he wont understand.....some thoughts and feelings are better left unsaid....so....a friendship which developed in more than 2 years...ends this way :(
I guess good for him and me too...anyways..after our last talk iam sure he would not be too much interested in chatting with me , though he may not say that directly.
At the end.....from the core of my heart i wish him all the happiness...may all his wishes be fulfilled...he'll always be a part of my prayers.
For me.....its .....CHAPTER CLOSE.