hamdim2: hay wali pausheeda jo kafir khula

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#542 Posted by hamidm2 on July 1, 2007 3:41:17 pm
Re: # 518

PM,

``why do you try so hard anyway? We`re obviously all deluded fools, aren`t we?`` ..........

....... i am worried that it might be contagious ........ every now and then i too have this `intuition` that somone is watching over me - like you said, i can`t explain it, but it `just seems to be right` ......... actually, it used to happen a lot more when i was younger and smoking peeli pati and popping mandies ....... this `feeling` went away for many years when i was busy trying to make a living, but recently it has returned - i think it has something to do with the fact that people of my generation have started dying and on memorial day i hurt my back trying to dig up a bush ............ fear is a horrible thing and i am frightened of it ........ i want to be deluded, but i don`t have enough brain cells left (or maybe i have too many).......... help me, pm