bomb blasts

i dont want to die just yet. certainly not in a bomb blast. i dont want to be a mere 'statistic' of terrorist activities. i havent prayed all my prayers and havent done enough good deeds. i have been putting that off to some convenient moment in life when i will have 'time'. i wish i knew 'when' i was supposed to die, atleast til then i would complete all my mandatory faraiz. im terrified of kabar ka azaab. but ofcourse i havent done anything ensure i dont go through a tough ordeal.
and things in peshawar are getting so bad. i think ppl merely out of politeness are not saying it out loud, but we have a bloody civil war on our hands! where is a safe location in city/country where i can move my family out of harms way? so we dont end up as a statistic of the total body count in the evening newspaper.

i want to make this life count. before i die, i want to save the mangroves and make sure ppl dont throw wrappers out of their over-priced luxury cars onto the streets, as if the government has assigned a dedicated sweeper to clean up after them, so they dont need to keep the wrappers in their cars to throw in dustbin when they go home, but find it perfectly alright to litter the roads of this already-squeaky-clean country.

i have heard that there was a bomb blast near askary colony and air-force colony a little while ago. hope no lives were lost. the doors/windows of the lab rattled loudly in signals college, which is pretty far off from the rumoured location. Allah help us all.