vacation

finally off to a long-planned vacation. but in an ironic turn of events, don't feel like going at all. if was going alone, i'm quite sure i would canceled the plan, but with family it is not that easy to do.
don't know what will happen once i get back....
I do hope I get back though... alive... well...
grrrr
back's hurting already. a lot.
the flight is longest i've ever taken. 36 hours with three stopovers.
i don't know why my heart's sinking... and anxiety is increasing.
i always get nervous before flights but never this much.
let's see if i can make it safely.