that's just me

If you were to look at me now you'll see that I've moved on; but in truth i'm standing quite still waiting for you. I keep myself very busy. I've focused my life around short term goals... none of which have anything to do you with you... or with me for that matter. But no matter how busy I am or what I do, nothing keeps my mind off you. You are constantly on my mind. I miss you all the time. You affect everything I do and every decision I make; some things I do because I know they would piss you off, some I do because I think you'd be proud of me. I know it's silly of me becuase you would never know or care but it helps me to hold on to whatever I can. I go through this miserable excuse of a life that I have because I know that's what you chose for me. You want me to spend my life without you, so here I am, spending my life without you... being strong, smiling, confident and pretending to be on top of the world.

I know you're never coming back, you'll probably never even turn around just for a look, but I will always wait for you to come back... I'll always want you... I'll always miss you... I'll always love you.