more then just life

what to say
what to explain
but nothing come to mind
i feeel at peace
yet still waiting for.... enlightment as i heard today
and what i felt
i cannot explain

ironic you would say
but for me somehow
a prayer answered
qs'ed if it was a trial or a come true
the first time i can not tell you why

i know myself
i kept repeating today
but did i?
after so long i was deeply confused
i felt only a moment of what
you have gone through
finding myself lost through out this moment in time
in less then 24 hrs you exclaimed
yes i said not believing what i had just told you
i wish you could be there
feel what it is that
knocks at my door
my eposoides

but wheni come home
i miss you
no matter... your home
was always here as far
as i can remember

your family a rock
planted to continue growing
keeping me grounded somehow
it took 27 years to find you
i know i wont lose you
but will i find you
a mile away

can i drop by
when i want to run away
you held me through the time
that broke me into two
not once, not twice
hundred of times..... it feels

3 years is what we got
it means more then a lifetime
i cant belive..... that i would find
what was in front of me my whole life
i was lucky.... you saw when no body did
you qs'ed when they did
and why they just past me by...

your book is what got me through
those last months i completed
the hardest thing in my life
stood by me
even right now
as i stumble... fall, you pulled me
held me
let me cry
when i lost love from my life

watched me grow
into the person i am today
let me be myself
when i couldnt.. i cant all day

ill miss your house everytime
i pass it....
ill miss your mom yelling at me
your dad checkin on me
manzi k whose grown into the most
amazing youth of today
ill miss you
i love you
ill always be here
waitin to hear
you know..... what you saw today
you are strong
you are apart of what you thought you lost
you are who you are
no matter what

Your never alone
He is always ... always
there......
even now when i think
im losing you
but i am not
we are just gaining....

you are beautiful
not your face
not your figure
but what you thought
you lost
inside.....
a candle had been lit
a lamp to shield it
oil runs it
( in the book it says)
keep it lit, cover it
find yourself
and it will shine right through
for someone to find you
to love you
for who you are

ill be here waitin....