WTF!!!

Writing to futuerme.org isn’t a good idea because it’s absolutely akin to scratching old wounds. In some insane moment in Nov 2007 I had posted an email to my future self and today 2 years later I got it when I’d completely forgotten about it. So getting this unexpected mail from the past was WTF moment. I can’t post the entire blabbering but this paragraph hit me like a whip. Darn it! *eyes wide open due to sheer amazement with a sad face* :’(

I have an eye on the coming 2 years. I don’t know what I will be doing then? I have no idea where I’ll be? I have no idea where S will be? What she’ll be doing? What will be the status of our relationship? I have not been lucky in friendships but I really hope and want this friendship to work. I love talking to her… the only sane person/voice in my maddening loneliness.

After blast form the past I’ve nothing else to write… * grabs jacket and walk off*