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weirdness maximus
there is no other way to describe. The door is opened by a smile-less face. I enter the room and he goes to his laptop trying to connect to the internet, because he has to be available online owing to a work-day.
then he turns on the television and flips channels.
at that point I message abdy: wtf!
yes, it was strangely, weirdly and awkwardly different. there was no talk of anything but life's general happenings. work mostly. there was no emotional outbursts (thank LORD for that). there was nothing emotional at all.
he's mean, impatient and as M puts it, was "dissing my ass".
most importantly, he doesn't look at me anymore unless we are talking. and it really throws me off, especially since meeting-up was his idea, especially since i get his engines rolling.
i don't get it. i don't get it. i don't get it.
all of you are right. it won't be one time thing. i just don't know when the next time will come. and i definitely don't know if i want to go through this turmoil that i'm feeling right now ever again.
Round 1 goes to seven hours.
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Yes there will be another last time. Be brave.
And my dear, both of you know that you would go through this turmoil again: he, because you spent seven hours with a lost love even in the absence of emotional comfort; and you know it too, because ... well, you know it. Don't you? :)
Just know when to say enough. Best of luck!
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